Sep 26, 2011

Maybe I'll Switch Majors?

I should switch my major. I'm just throwing this thought out there. I don't think it would actually happen in a milllion years. Perhaps I'm just discouraged this semester?

Let me back up. This semester sucks. Lets just have a really honest blog post, yeah? I'd appreciate comments at the end. Here it goes.

At the end of last semester, the end of my sophomore year, it was the routine time to apply for the professional program. (oh, critical piece of info...in case you didn't know...I'm a Biological Engineering major). Well. My academic advisor was kind enough to tell me that I couldn't get in. I had not taken all of the required classes to get into the program. "Few students have" she told me, as to not make me feel left behind. Well, it made me feel like crap. So, now I have to take all of the classes that I so conveniently skipped the last two years of my college education in order to be able to get into the professional program of Biological Engineering and continue me on the track of graduation.

There are no other classes that I should be taking at this time. ONLY the classes that I need to get into this program. So. That leaves me, this semester taking the following classes: Electrical Engineering for Non-Majors, Computer Engineering Drafting (AutoCAD, aka a 3D engineering design class), Dynamics, and English 2010. I absolutely DESPISE all of my classes.

I take that back.

I LOVE my English class. My teacher is great, and the entire semester is based around writing this research paper, and I'm writing it on all of the research that I did over the summer in Baltimore. The general IQ level in that class is pretty low (ask me about that some other time), there is hardly ever any homework if any, and the class usually gets out early. Yeah. Good class. But...I'm not an English major.

All my other classes are awful though.

The thing is this: I just don't know if I have a love for Engineering. (That's your cue to take a gasp if you haven't at some point already in this blog).

I have a love for science. But NOT engineering.

I hate physics.

Engineering is applied physics. Crap. Why the heck am I majoring in engineering then!? Beats me. That's why I chose Biological Engineering!!! I LOVE the biology part with ALL of my heart!! I really love all of the lab work that I do, and I love all of the research that I have done in the labs that I've been able to have experience in.

The part that troubles me is the requirements that the University places on Biological Engineers to get the stupid mechanical engineering emphasis all to pass the FE exam in order to graduate. If I don't want that particular backgroud in my education for my future career, then why do I need to take those courses?! I simply do NOT understand.

If I were to switch my major to something else, I fear that I would lose the parts of Biological Engineering that I so deeply love. All I want to do is get rid of the physics aspect, however I feel like I am asking for the impossible.

Even after this semester is over, I have two and a half years until I graduate, so switching my major wouldn't make that big of a difference. I have most of my generals done, so really any switch would add on about one semester to my schooling.

I suppose at this point, I should make a pros and cons list:


Why I should NOT swith majors:

1) I've already done 2 years (will be 2.5 soon) of Biological Engineering, and I have a pretty good base built up in it of knowledge, friends (study groups), and professors.

2) I will be accepted into the Biological Engineering Program after the end of this semester.

3) I would lose my job. You have to be a declared Biological Engineering major to work in my lab.

4) I think like an Engineer. Whether that came naturally, or they (meaning my profesors) have taught me how over the last two years... I'm not sure, but regardless, I do.

5) It would be kind of embarrassing at this point to have to tell everyone that I switched majors. You know...it would be like an identity crisis.

6) I would have to start a whole bunch of new classes with (hold your breath) FRESHMEN

7) I have no idea what major I would actually switch to.

8) I should learn to be persistent and do hard things

9) No one wants to be in school for forever. I would be nice to just get a degree. I'm half way done. I should just finish and get it. Maybe the second half will be better.

10) The obvious money issue with staying in school longer.


Why I SHOULD switch majors:

1) I think I would be happier...

2) I hate physics, and the FE requirements are retarded.

3) I'm having a really hard time in some of my Engineering classes as of late

4) Maybe a job as a teacher? or something would be a more practical career with a family????

5) Maybe I could actually understand my homework for once, and then get an A on a test. I don't remember exactly the last time I got an A on a test. (Keep in mind...getting an A on a test is defferent from getting an A in a class...usually teachers have to curve the points because the tests are so freakin hard). You might think this is an exaggeration, but I've serioulsy walked out of class a couple times in the last month almost in tears. I would have been in tears if I wasn't in the male-infested Engineering building.

6) I no longer feel like Engineering is my passion. I like it. I know what it's about. I think a little part of me is really giddy about it...but it's not my absolute passion. I'm not one of those people who can spend all night (and I literally mean ALL NIGHT...it's open later than the library for a reason...engineers need the extra hours) every night at the engineering building doing their homework. I honestly don't think that it's because I'm a lazy student. It's because I don't find a passion in the crappy physics. I need to find my true passion.

7) If I had a hard time with the first half, who's to say what will be thrown in my face the second half? Granted, great classes could be coming my way...but at the saem time... they could be terribly awful also.

8) I'm not sure how long it would take me to find a job. I don't want just some random job doing whatever. I want a research job! Esp. with the research experience I have a Johns Hopkins and everything, I feel like I could be a valuable lab worker somewhere here at USU. If I get onto work study they MIGHT keep me at the lab I work in right now, but I don't think my boss would be too happy with me...


Okay, well that's all I can think of right now. Knowing me, I probably missed some big, super, critical point, but regardless, I think you get the jist of what has been going on in my head for the last long while.

Please give me your advice if you have any! If not, I'm glad that I could just write about my troubles and that you got to read them. I came to no conclusions myself writing the blog post. I'll just continue sitting in misery staring at some circuits that I don't understand because supposedly I have to know them for the FE exam so that I can be a real engineer someday.

Sep 11, 2011

My New Road bike

Once upon a time, back in January, I had a crazy idea to participate in a triathlon. My brother Alan is pretty much a pro biker and he was kind enough to let me borrow his fancy cyclocross bike to train for the race, and I used it for the race in April. I slowly gained a small obsession for biking. During this time, I also took a spinning class, which added to my biking obsession.

Then I went to Baltimore. I obviously couldn't take my bike. I was way more sad than anyone could ever imagine. Seriously. I went though biking withdrawals. No joke. I had hyperactive legs, and I didn't even realize it until in lab meetings people would have to physically have to stop my legs from tapping. I didn't ever have that habit before in my life.

I wasn't earning a ton of money for my internship. I earned a lot of money relatively speaking, but it was by no means a lot. However, I was missing biking so much, and all that I wanted to get a road bike of my very own. I thought that I could save up and get my very own road bike. Not a very fancy one, but just a cheap sort of, used one off of the internet or something when I got home.

I contemplated this decision greatly, and I decided that I would go through with it. I hadn't told anyone about this, but right when I decided to do it, I called Alan and I told him. I was super excited. He didn't sound too thrilled. Well, he did, but I don't think he was thrilled with how I was going about doing it. So, then he said that he would help me look for some bikes that I could get, and help me get the best thing.

Long story short...I GOT A ROAD BIKE. MY VERY OWN. Alan had it ready for me by the time I got home. It was the very first thing I saw in my bedroom at home. AND. Alan even surprised me and put STARS on my bike, and my NAME on it, too!!! GAH, I WAS SOOOO HAPPY!!!! It is PERFECT!!!



Then, I got to buy all of the accessories for the bike. Including bike shoes, pedals, biking shorts, etc. I'll be honest, I don't have enough money right now (or didn't want to spend the money right now) to buy my own helmet, so I'm borrowing my brother's helmet for the time being. I'll get my own eventually.





So yeah. I LOVE my biking stuff.

I crashed once. I won't go into details on that. It's embarrassing. But I broke my cleats. I repaired them though. So they're fixed again as of yesterday. So I can go riding again starting tomorrow. I'm stoked!

Sep 4, 2011

My Baltimore Experience: A Day In The Life

All along I've been wanting to post pictures of my true Baltimore experience. True meaning, what I lived through everyday. I couldn't do this from the beginning because I didn't want to post pictures of where I lived for obvious reasons. But now, I can totally do that. Everything I have posted so far has been pretty touristy and not so much "day in the life", so that's why I've wanted to do this.

However, I have found that it is much harder than I thought it would be to capture the "true experience" in photographs. Much of Baltimore I didn't want to pull out my camera in. Maybe I just didn't stay there long enough to become comfortable. Maybe I just stay safe. Either way, I don't have complete photo documentation. Regardless, I will now post what I do have, and provide appropriate captions.

So below is my ATTEMPT to provide what is, what I consider, my daily life in Baltimore (outside of laboratory, because I already did a blog post on that :) )


These benches are ALL over Baltimore. Every single bench in Baltimore has these words on it: "Baltimore The Greatest City in America". By the time I left Baltimore, I truly believed what it said. This bench may be the best looking of all the benches that I ever saw in the entire city (it's right by Kate and Meredith's house). All the other benches are pretty...ghetto to say the least and I most likely would have gotten my camera stolen if I would have pulled it out. (Okay, maybe it's not THAT bad, but some of them are!)

MY APARTMENT:


Charles Towers. I lived in the one on the left.


The plaza to the entrance of the towers.


The front entrance to my apartment tower


View #2


Me and Kevin, one of the guys who works at the front desk at the apartments. I wrote about him before, he's the one who sings and has a CD out and is going to be famous :)


The door to my apt., #505


My bedroom. Yes. That IS an air mattress. Yes. That IS all that clothes that is brought and wore all summer.


My bookshelf and pictures of my family.


The other side of my bedroom (sorry, bad pic)


My herbs that I grew from FHE! Yes! There IS life in a little apt. in downtown Baltimore!!


Another view


A picture out my bedroom window. This window faces west towards Lexington Market (dun dun dunnn....). Pretty much every night I could look down and there would be homeless people sleeping on that street below by the bus stop. And yes. I would frequent that bus stop.


Our living room (aka Megan's bedroom)


The dining room


A view South West from the dining room


A view south from the dining room


The SMALL little kitchen :)






The bathroom. It kind of reminded me of a hotel sometimes.




Hallway entrance.


View #2.


The door to the trash chute


The trash chute for my floor


The elevators for my floor


The mail room


My mailbox. #505. I checked it obsessively for mail daily.


TRANSPORTATION:


The Hopkins Shuttle. This is how I got to work everyday.


The Charm City Circulator. It's free for everyone. That means you can find anyone and everyone on it. It's fabulous.

I wish I would have thought to capture a shot of the MTA...


CHARLES STREET

I walked up and down this street multiple times daily (I DID live on it after all). So why not take a few pics of it?


The intersection where my apartment is at. Charles and Saratoga.


A view up Charles Street. Right where I would walk everyday to get to work. Or anywhere else I would need to go most likely.


A classic row of shops on Charles Street.


Another view up Charles


Pretty much the best picture I have ever taken. This near the Washington Monument (the old one in Baltimore, not the one in DC) circle. That's an old church in the back ground. I love the stone road, and the church in the background. The sign on the post is one for the Mt. Vernon district, which is the neighborhood I lived in (or right on the border of technically). It's one of the nicer neighborhoods in Baltimore. This is right where the shuttle would drop me off after work every day, by the Peabody music school.

Welcome Home!

Two weeks ago today, I was on the flight home, writing that last, massively long blog post. It seems like that was sooo long ago, because SO much has happened since!! I really can't think of much to write about though (although my days have obviously been too busy to write, and I haven't gotten more than 6 hours of sleep any of those nights...maybe that's why I can't think of anything?)

I was happy to be on ground in Utah. Right when the plane landed, it felt nice to be home! It was the moment I had been waiting for for a long time! But then I knew that I was a long ways away from all my new friends that I had made that summer that I had been with just earlier that day. It was really a weird feeling. I didn't know when I would see them again. And I still don't. Hopefully soon. It was still good to be home though. It was super late though, and all I wanted to do was go home though. I had conveniently forgotten to eat however, so I was really hungry, too.

I got home. My brothers were there. They unloaded all my bags for me. My dog didn't remember who I was. I was heartbroken. My dad waited on me with everything I could ever imagine food wise because I was so hungry. Basically I was getting the royal treatment. And it looked like I was crying because my eyes were watering due to a mix of dry air and me being so tired. It really was a bizarre night kind of. But soo good. Both of my brothers, my sister in law, and my newphew were there. It was so great. I loved seeing everyone!

That night, when I looked up into the sky, I saw the stars. Legitimate STARS. It was the first time that I had seen the stars since MAY!! I couldn't contain my joy (I know...that's cliche, but it's the truth)!!!

The next day, I tried my best to sleep in. As in, I slept until 7. Which is 9am eastern time. That's not bad considering that's way past when I would normally wake up when I lived in Baltimore, but it's pathetic for a Utah "sleeping in" time. I didn't know what to do with my time. So I started unpacking. Later that day, I went out to lunch with my aunt and uncle.

One of the biggest traditions in my family is to have everyone over for Sunday dinners. When I say "everyone", I mean all of my siblings and their spouses (if they're married), and they're kids (if they have any), and my Uncle Jim and Aunt Angie and their kids Colby and Carson. Over the summer, I missed all of these dinners. This was by far one of the things that I missed the most about being home. Since I came home on a Sunday night, I missed the dinner by a couple of hours, and I was moving up to Logan later that week, so my parents postponed the dinner to Monday night! So everyone came over for dinner that night. It made me sooo happy :) Being with everyone in my family is one of my most favorite things things in life.

I got to spend time with my friend Julia the next day. We went out to lunch. It's sad that I missed the whole summer with her, but I'm glad that I got to spend one day of it with her!

One of the crappy things that I found out when I came back was that my car got sick over the summer :( I didn't take my car out to Baltimore for obvious reasons, so it sat in my driveway at home. Therefore, it got....ill. It now makes funny noises. My brother Darren fixed it up for me a bit before I came home. There was a hornets nest in the passenger side door, and he cleaned it out for me a bit. But it still sounded awful. My driving skills came back automatically, but my poor car... :( Basically we had to change the oil in it, and then we still added in more lubricating stuff into it and it still makes some weird noises. Whenever I first turn it on, it sounds weird. And, unfortunately, I can't rely on public transit in Logan like I can in Baltimore ;) It will be okay though. It still works.

The Thursday after I got home I got to move my first car load of stuff up to my apartment in LOGAN!! Never before in my life have I been so excited to take the drive from Kaysville to Logan.

I forgot that it's construction season in Utah. So the road in between Willard and Brigham City was awful. And I wasn't very smart when I packed my car. I still go there safe though. Driving into Cache Valley almost made me cry! Okay. Not really. I don't want to over use that statement. Last time I used that statement (when I saw Wicked on Broadway), it was true, and I didn't cry this time, but it was still a super happy moment. I am in LOVE with Cache Valley!

It was minutes after I got there until I began starting to see my friends. I love Darwin! (that's the name of my little neighborhood of apts). It's such a friendly place! I went out to lunch with a bunch of my friends to Firehouse Pizza. I can't really explain how happy I was to be with them! There were even some new friends there, but most of them were ones that I had been missing all summer! I was totally grinning the WHOLE entire time!

That night, I talked my friends into going star gazing. All last summer with my old roommates and friends I would go star gazing, and that is by far one of the activities that I missed the most this summer. I had been dying to go! We drove about 20 min. out of Logan and found a spot out in the middle of nowhere in the dark. Well...we were stupid and didn't look up the weather. It was mostly cloudy :) There were still some stars though! I was pleased! Most of my friends though were just happy to be outside in the dark I think. And then, lightening started! We watched a lightening show! So. Epic!

The next day I drove back home to Kaysville. I had lunch with my dad. We went out to Applebee's.

That's night I went to Lagoon with my brother Darren. It was pretty fun. Actually...kind of boring. Well...the Lagoon part was boring I mean. I have been to Lagoon so many times before that it was pretty redundant. It was a BLAST being with my brother though. Is anyone sensing a theme of this post yet? I don't really care what I do. I just love being with the people that I haven't seen in a long time!

The next morning I got to spend with my brother Alan. Alan is the one who helped me to get the road bike (see my upcoming post on my new road bike!!!). Alan and I went to various bike shops in order to buy me some biking shoes and some other biking accessories that I will need. I'll go into more detail on my other post.

Then I got to go to lunch with Alan and my sister in law Raquel and my little nephew. They have been faithful blog readers of mine over the summer, and caught onto my love of Indian food...so they took me out to the ONE Indian restaurant in Davis County. Taste of India. It was pretty expensive (seeing as it's a monopoly of Indian Food there). But let me tell you. It was DELICIOUS. My nephew even liked it I think!

Then I got to make my final trek up to Logan before the school year started. It took my whole car full of stuff, and Alan's car full of stuff, plus my bike on his bike rack. I seriously have too much crap.

I LOVE Logan. Have I said that yet? Because I do. It's my home! All my Baltimore friends say that Baltimore is my home. And it is, too. I think a part of me wants to not stay in Utah my whole life because it really is in this bubble, and I don't know if I really enjoy that. But I really really love Logan. It's my home for now. And I'm so glad to be home right now.

That's basically it for my first week home. Kind of all just a blur. Most of it was just all filled with unpacking from Baltimore, packing for Logan, and then unpacking once I was in Logan. Then all the other time was spent with all the people that I haven't seen all summer.

Oh, and getting my dog to remember who I was. That small story did have a happy ending. Buster DID remember who I was, no problem at all, the NEXT day. I just had to pet him how I did before after I had played frisbee with him for a while. And then I got to cuddle with him and life was good. He knows me now :)

Anyway. I'm glad to be home in Utah. I hope that I can go back to Baltimore SOON! Part of my heart was left there. I was only there for three and a half months, but that's still long enough to gain a love for a place, and especially people like I did.



I currently have SIX word documents open (no joke) drafting six blogs to come. So stay tuned!
1) Day in the Life in Baltimore (LOTS of pics)
2) What I Miss About Baltimore (list)
3) What I Learned In Baltimore (list)
4) Summer Highlights (list)
5) My New Road Bike!!
6) First Week of School